Could the China Adoption Manual BE Any More Overwhelming?!

Let me start by saying, "AAAAHHHHH!" D'! How did you do all this?!!! I received a couple emails this week from Lifeline with documents attached. Some I had already read and downloaded from their website and some I had not. I just was given the link to our CAM today. Our China Adoption Manual. Are you kidding me?! I mean I realize that they need to really know the people who are applying for adoption, this is afterall a child's life we are talking about here. But I just didn't realize exactly how much there would be. I don't mind all the forms, I am my father's daughter, I see a form...I must complete it. I'm good at document gathering, like it actually, in a sick sorta way. It's the blasted short essay questions! I was talking to Eric about it and trying to voice that I felt so "blahhhh" about all the short answer essay stuff. I finally landed on; it's because I already know I'm a good parent! To which my loving husband responded, "Yep. Now you just have to prove it to total strangers." Which is exactly it. Of course they need all the essay stuff to determine if we are psycho or not, but wow, it is gonna be so time consuming and draining. However, our little girl is worth it!!! (or boy...we are going to ask for a girl but are open to whatever child God has for us.)

And so...here we go. Our eldest child, our sweet son, is already announcing to the world that we are adopting. He apprently had a prayer request for his little sister in China last Sunday. Now all the Children's Ministry is buzzing about Noah's little Chinese sister. Which means, now their parents are approaching us. Guess it's time to formally tell the church. Which is a good thing considering they are such a prayerful and giving church. We can use large quantities of both, he-he.I just need the Lord to guide my footsteps according to his word and let no sin rule over me. (Psalm 119-133) Because I am already racing ahead and tripping. I need to slow down and focus calmly on one thing at a time. NOT try to do 20 things at once and screw half of them up and freak out with stress over it. Speaking of freaking out with stress...the money. This is my other area of prayer. I CAN NOT freakout over money. If God has called us to this, he will help us fund it. I recently heard a guy on the radio say, "If God orders it, he'll pay for it." I am gonna take heart and rest in that. We are re-working our budget and tightening up, I am back at work and will likely work more, we will apply for grants, and eventually raise support. God will work out the fine details, as he lights my path I will take a step and when the light doesn't move, neither will I. Lord hear my prayer.